I have a FULL TIME SISTER!

YAY! I can't believe I will be moving in PERMANENTLY with my bestest sister in the whole wide world << MELAN >>. I can't wait. It's gonna be soooo { UBER } FUN! We'll to be so FABULOUS and FLYY 24 hours 7 days a week! I love her soooooo much and I can't wait. iHAVE a NEW Full time sister! YAY!

The fun starts tomorrow when we go JOB HUNTING at the MALL....all FRIGGIN DAY! Oh yeah!

Love you bestest! What would I do without youuuuuu!

Stuff Happens... {{♥♥}}

Today was good and not so good. I saw him... (yay!) =] but then {{oh wow}}...I won't even put it up here because for one it's waaaay to EMBARRASSING and I don't want the whole world to know. Just know that it's not good at all really. But it's not like stuff like this happens on a regular basis. I kinda thought about some stuff too. So today I told him how I felt. I told him I was starting to catch a little feelings, and so is he. Too bad he's only going to be here for like another month then he's going BACK TO COLLEGE. He's not that far though so we'll see what happens. Hopefully it turns out in my favor. =] So as far as what happened today, I won't worry about it anymore. I mean...stuff happens right? So I'll just PUT A SMILE ON like he says and it'll be okay. =] I hope to see him soon. ♥

----> I can't stop thinking of him... ♥♥♥

Just some thoughts...

Yesterday was GREAT. I saw.....HIM. He's quite amazing might I add. Those light brown eyes put me a in a daze. The slightest touch from him is like...*whoa*. Yeah, I can't even put in words. But I mean, I can't fall for him....not yet. I'm not setting myself up for something that may not be what I think it is. { LOL } He is however a really cool guy.

On the other hand, I think I'm [ addicted ] ... to LOVE. Maybe I think about it more than others do that are in my age range or maybe I just yearn for it because I don't have it. LOVE is so beautiful. FOR EXAMPLE, I feel loved from my sister ---> MeLan {{ The coolest chick in the effin world }}, but that's not the same TYPE OF LOVE I'm talking about. Having someone by your side at all times thru anything you know, like that other half. The one you can't stop thinking about, the one you can talk to on the phone with for hours at a time. The one you can call at 4 in the morning just because you need someone to talk to and HE WILL ACTUALLY PICK UP. The guy that makes u smile when not a DAMN THING IS FUNNY. The person that will call you BEAUTIFUL at YOUR WORST and knows every little thing about you. The one that no matter how many times he has kissed you, everytime he does YOU STILL FEEL WEAK and you get butterflies. When you see him your adrenaline starts to RUSH and you can't help but smile at the fact that HE IS YOURS. The one person you find AMAZING. The one that no one else can compare to. He shows u off to all his friends, sends u that RANDOM sweet little text during the day just to let you know HE CARES. The guy that will pick you up just so you won't have to step in the rain puddle and get your CHUCKS wet. ♥ The one who will bring you lunch on HIS LUNCH BREAK if you ASK him or he will DRIVE ALL THE WAY from wherever he is at JUST TO SEE YOU. The guy who holds you tight and WHEN SOMETHING IS WRONG.....HE KNOWS. The person who looks you in your face and tells you everything will be okay when you're at your weakest. I can go on and on but I think you get the picture. Now you may think I am taking this a bit TO FAR, but whose to say GUYS LIKE THIS don't exist, maybe you're just LIKE ME and haven't found him yet. ---> faith <---

Go for it?? .... I am so happy for my sister!!! ♥

They say if you want something then go for it right?? Is that always true? I mean, what if what you're going for is never intended for you or you may never actually be able to acquire it but you think you can so you go for it. And when you do, YOU FAIL. Then what do you do? Have you ever thought about that? But I won't let that get me down. ---> NO FEAR <--- But anyways, I am so happy for my sister!!! ♥ She has found someone who truly appreciates her and I am so happy for that. She has been going thru some stuff this year and for her to be treated right is so good. No more worries! YAY Sister!!!! And if he breaks her heart I will bash his effin face in and break his skateboard! { LOL } I may be laughing but I'm serious though.

Now as for me....yeah, I'll get to that later.

Now I am about to get back to the BET Awards!!! You need to be watching too. ♣ Dueces ♣

Feelings [ ? ] ♂ ♀

♂ ♀ Feelings...

OK, I guess I have to admit it. I am starting to like him but then again I'm trying to stop myself too. Sometimes I hate getting myself into situations where I don't know what the outcome will be. Sometimes they always say if you don't have any feelings you can't get hurt right? Girls [ ♀ ] are very different from guys. [ ♂ ].Especially when it comes to feelings. Have u ever liked someone who didn't feel the same way or you didn't know how they felt at all? Then, when u do find out how they feel, it's not what you thought it was. Well, I surely have and I know I don't wanna go through that again, ever. In a way this is kind of funny because beside this one { asshole } from a while ago, I haven't had any interest in anyone and then he comes along. Now this one guy, I won't say no names, lol, took me out, met my mom, spent all this time with me and everything. Yeah, he was cool, I liked him and then all of a sudden he ends up with a GF and I haven't heard from him since!! What kind of stuff is that?? This is what I am trying to avoid. Of course it's natural to catch some type of interest for someone. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to rush into anything but I just don't want to end up looking stupid in the end like last time. I say this because, we've been out once and he came over but that doesn't mean he likes me right? So I don't wanna get all "geeked up" [ LOL ] and then get my feelings hurt IF I find out he doesn't have any type of attraction to me what-so-ever. I know you are prolly thinking why don't I just ask him...well, I am kinda skeptical because I don't want him to get the wrong impression and think I'm trying to rush into things or anything like that. So I think I'll just give it time and wait for him to say something about it. I don't want it to seem like I am thinking so negative and saying that all guys are assholes, or bad people or something like that cuz I don't think that, I just don't want to get my feelings hurt and think that he likes me if he doesn't. Can you blame me?

Yesterday was GREAT. I don't even know where to start. From the moment he stepped foot in my house, the moment we arrive at the movies, and the moment he left {which might I add I didn't want him to}, {{everything was good}}. If I could do it all over again I would. To bad you can't go back in time right? I'm not going to put all my business out there but I mean what can I say, this guy is great. There are times when I thought there were NO MORE respectable young men on this [EARTH] anymore. I can't say that about him. Ok I admit, I am kind of crushing =]. I can go on and on but I think I'll end it right here. The Hulk was a good movie by the way, and the Iron Man came in at the end so you know there's going to be another movie.

Movie tickets for 2 = $20.00
A Large Coke Icee = $4.25
A Great Night with a Great Guy = Priceless

LIFE

Do you ever look at life and wish people could see what you go thru everyday? They try to make stuff better but they can't. All they can do is hope things will get better in due time. This year has been rough for me. I won't get into everything but I can't complain anymore. Life goes on. I am still alive. I am now 17 years old. Yes, there is one thing I am still worried about but all I can do is pray on that issue. However, I have learned that in order to succeed you must know deep within yourself that u can do anything you want to if you just try. Be more optimistic because on some real, it could always be worse. Okay maybe, I don't have the perfect family, but I still love them. I may not be the perfect person and my friends may not be perfect but I still love them too. Life is something that one must live to fullest and be thankful for each day because you only have ONE LIFE. You never know, what is here today may be gone tomorrow. So please everybody, LIVE, LAUGH and LOVE. Be grateful for what you have and if you want something, GO FOR IT. Let nothing, and I mean nothing hold you back. What's a life worth living if you aren't doing everything in your power to BE HAPPY and ENJOY IT. Love the LIFE that you were given.